Birth of an alcoholic.......

I guess it was the month of october in the year 2008when I went to my cousin`s(elder by 4 years) house for celebrating durga puja. That night nobody was at home excluding him,me and his friends. So one of his friend said that we should have beer,my cousin looked at me…..i said no probs I’ll have coke instead.

They brought kingfisher strong can for themselves and coke for me. But after sometime they insisted that I should also try some beer. I also got excited that for the first time I will be teasting beer and that too kingfisher so I also agreed and giggling we started sipping our cans.

I absolutely hated it. But would dare "okay do two swallows without a break in between!" until my can half empty. "I think I'm drunk!" and etc, you know how it goes. Suddenly the my mobbile rings! Its my dad- he said they ‘ll be back within 1 hour as it was night and cold outside and they had also visited most of the pandals!!!My cousin and I freak out! I dumped my beer down the sink(because no way could I guzzle the rest, especially at the already inebriated state I thought we were at). Then washed the sink. Then brushed our teeth with excessive amounts of toothpaste.

But we were SURE they could smell beer in the air so we were in a state of fear. So my cousin starts sprayin room freshner as I dump the plastic bags full of beer can some where far from the house. We now have a bag full of popcorn which was for eatin g while drinking. We're standing awkwardly in the kitchen. Still too suspicious. So we rush in sitting room and put on any DVD of some movie I guess “Jane Tu Ya Jane Na”. We start the disc halfway through. We finally are able to act relaxed just as my and my cousin's parents enter.

Now... when we meet we drink sometimes in restaurent on in bar but never in home….also in I some times drink with my friends here…………….I have also tasted Long Island Iced Tea, Blue MF, Apple Martini….and I want to increase my list……………………….

MERA PAHELA PAHELA CIGERATTE

It was10th July 2009 and was eighteen and enamored with the idea of beatniks, and I wanted to identify with them. I fantasized about hanging out in coffee houses, riding bike at 90km/hr at least and casually puffing away at a cigarette. So I was determined to hold my first cigarette between my fingers. I went to the neighborhood panwala shop and bought a GOLDFLAKE KINGS and a match box………then I came to my room and was ready for the big thing for the first time. I lit one. I couldn't really believe I was doing it. In my whole 17 years of life I had felt nothing but disgust for habit but after coming college I thought I must give it a try and here I was doing the same thing. It tasted weird. I wondered how you were supposed to inhale. It seemed awkward and foreign to my sensibilities when I held it to my face with the smoke curling into my eyes. Very tentatively I sucked on the tip. Instantly I felt dizzy and my chemistry changed. I told myself that 'Well, that was fun, so now I know. I need this in my life' and I dismissed it . The next day, right around the same time, I got to thinking it would feel good to do it again. This time, I lay down so that I wouldn't get so dizzy. By the third and fourth day, I told myself, 'I can't believe this is happening.' My body and emotions had begun to crave these little smoking sessions. It had nothing to do with my social life, it was just my own secret "feel good" thing. It gave me something to look forward to each day. Soon, I began having two of these sessions per day, and then three or more. I did not actually introduce it into my social life until 26th July 2009 i.e. my 19th birthday. I told all my friends that I had started the big thing ….smoking…..most of my smoker friends congratulated me and some of my friends told me to get rid of this awful habit but guess what I surprised them when I told them that I `ll continue smoking only for 1 year and quit it in third year of my engineering. All of them said'pagal ho gaya hai kya …. Nahi chor payega'.I thought, 'Wow. I'm grown up now. I am being told that it is an okay thing for me to do but the challenge lay ahead next year when the time comes to quit it' and I puffed away one more cigarette burning all the tensions.