MERA PAHELA PAHELA CIGERATTE

It was10th July 2009 and was eighteen and enamored with the idea of beatniks, and I wanted to identify with them. I fantasized about hanging out in coffee houses, riding bike at 90km/hr at least and casually puffing away at a cigarette. So I was determined to hold my first cigarette between my fingers. I went to the neighborhood panwala shop and bought a GOLDFLAKE KINGS and a match box………then I came to my room and was ready for the big thing for the first time. I lit one. I couldn't really believe I was doing it. In my whole 17 years of life I had felt nothing but disgust for habit but after coming college I thought I must give it a try and here I was doing the same thing. It tasted weird. I wondered how you were supposed to inhale. It seemed awkward and foreign to my sensibilities when I held it to my face with the smoke curling into my eyes. Very tentatively I sucked on the tip. Instantly I felt dizzy and my chemistry changed. I told myself that 'Well, that was fun, so now I know. I need this in my life' and I dismissed it . The next day, right around the same time, I got to thinking it would feel good to do it again. This time, I lay down so that I wouldn't get so dizzy. By the third and fourth day, I told myself, 'I can't believe this is happening.' My body and emotions had begun to crave these little smoking sessions. It had nothing to do with my social life, it was just my own secret "feel good" thing. It gave me something to look forward to each day. Soon, I began having two of these sessions per day, and then three or more. I did not actually introduce it into my social life until 26th July 2009 i.e. my 19th birthday. I told all my friends that I had started the big thing ….smoking…..most of my smoker friends congratulated me and some of my friends told me to get rid of this awful habit but guess what I surprised them when I told them that I `ll continue smoking only for 1 year and quit it in third year of my engineering. All of them said'pagal ho gaya hai kya …. Nahi chor payega'.I thought, 'Wow. I'm grown up now. I am being told that it is an okay thing for me to do but the challenge lay ahead next year when the time comes to quit it' and I puffed away one more cigarette burning all the tensions.